I am a grateful believer in Jesus Christ, I suffer from Sexual & Porn Addictions, these two addictions lead into dishonesty and and doing everything possible to protect the lies. My name is Bryan Hoss. I never would have considered myself much of blogger or someone that feels I need to share anything with the world, but all of that has changed since I have admitted my addictions. I want to reach other men who suffer from the same issues I have for the last 30-plus years.
I have found some wonderful insight on sexual addiction and how it has been an issue for thousands of years. We can trace this problem all the way back to King David. Yes, that is right, “The man after God’s own heart!” Samson is another who suffered from sexual addictions and almost missed his true calling that God had for him. If you will just take a moment and think about what we as men say to women, “If you love me you will have sex with me. Don’t you Love me?” Always the end game is to get laid. What’s even worse is that after we are done we are still very empty inside. For those of us who are addicts, we need to learn that sex is not love. If you are asking for sex as a way to feel love, you could very well be suffering from sexual addiction. Sex is so powerful that we let it consume our lives and it takes the top spot over everything else, even basic common sense. What we need to remember is that God is supposed to be that top spot. I can tell you that every sexual encounter before I admitted my addiction, no matter how good or bad, always left me empty within minutes of being done. I would run from relationship to relationship, never once considering the damage I was doing to the women that God had brought into my life. Since admitting my addictions God has truly taken this addiction from me, I can truly love and enjoy my wife Christien.
I would urge anyone who is struggles with sexual addiction to read Pslam 32:3-5, (There was a time when I would not admit what a sinner I was, But my dishonesty made me miserable and filled my days with frustrations. My strength evaporated like water on a sunny day until I admitted all my sins to you and stopped trying to hide them. I said to myself, “I will confess them to the Lord” And u forgave me! All my guilt is gone!) I pray the Lord will deliver you as he has delivered me.